8:48 pm
do you knw what fucking pisses me off. people. people are so uncaring and inconsiderate and just fucking piss me off so much. especially my friends. like fine strangers be dicks grab my ass shut doors on me be rude and obnxious in class or in the quad or resturant you’re dicks i can get over that but like my friends? i shouldnt have to call my friends shitty. but they are. you are.
u know what sucks. ik a lot of my friends read this. why do they read it? perhaps because theyre interested in me or care or wondering how im feeling or what ive been doing or idk anything but like obviously they care somewhat if there taking the time out to read anything n here. so. how come none of them ever show that care or concern or curiosity in rl. how come nobody ever asks me how i am or what im doing or idk just anything. like nobody seems to ever want to talk. thats fine i ugess but like idk maybe its just the new yorker in me we tend to if u ask us how are you you’re not going to get a “fine you?”, your guna get a 10 minute conversation. i guess thats why they have shrinks and therapists and advisors and other people who get paid to listen to you talk, because nobody else wants to lol i mean if u wanted to im just uh phhhhhhone callllllllllll uh waayyyy. like i mean would it kill u to take a few minutes and just talk to me. but then again now its like im asking for you to and i really thats not what i want i want you to want to like why the fuck idk maybe im just the rare person who actually wants to hear how someones day went or what they got on their exam or if theyre feeling better or what their plans are for break or if there dad is an ass or idk but itd be fucking nice if someone actually took interest in my life other than this fucking tumblr.
and im sick and fucking tired of hearing about this fucking trial. for all i care you guys could off of the face of the planet and id be just fine. i dont care anyymore it just causes stress and anxiety and upset and anger and i really dont need that so how about we just drop it. how abut i forget this place forget all of you move to hollywood find some rich old guy to buy me a mansion and a yacht and a dog and leave me all of his money when he dies, which would be the next week, and then id live hapily ever after alone just me my dog and my boat. sounds fucking better than dealing with any of u.
oh yeah there are 3 things that piss me off extremelyyyyyyyyyyyy:
1. open bedroom doors…even if nobody is home or anything, i feel uncomfortable and weird and it needs to be shut 2. being late or people who are late [minus if somethings out of your control ie:traffic, weather,etc.] its rude. wastes the other persons time. delays the other things you and the other person intends on doing that day, which might include other people therefore making htem late..and so on..and so on… 3. saying you will do things and then not doing them. especially when theyre important or have to do with important things.
so i hope you are having a fun night. sorry im pmsing all over it but really im not fucking blaming that because im pissed off and angry and want to kick things. while you a)get trashed and/or high b)bang someone you met 5 minutes ago c)have dinner & a movie night d)other on your saturday night, im going to go down a box of thin mint cookies i bought from some girl scout today, a whole bunch of anti-depressants and a sleeping pill or two, or three. i kindof just want to go to sleep and wake up at the show. 70ish hours. i bet i can sleep that long… whatever.
for the record i really dont feel like talking to anyone except for perhaps a few fives and maybe a few other people here and there but chances are i dont wnat to talk to you so please dont call or text or im me.
